an apology. a cry.
today i behaved as an insolent child. i apologize. and my love, you should know i miss you terribly when you leave. it is notions like these
that i wish could satisfy my fear and my hunger. i should take comfort in our lazy days. i should be calmed at the thoughts of our love, for it’s waves extend across continents and seas.
my insomnia tears my heart because one image of you should relieve
me of all fears and pain, and yet i sit and dwell paranoid and in vain
as a bird about the impossible questions to answer. i stew in the unhealthiest and unholiest of ways.
there are many reasons i adore you, but this reason i need you. to press me. grounded. i want all truths and i fear all unknown and it rips me apart like nobody knows.
