December 2009
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the surface, december 29, 2009
i’ve lived in this skin so long. it’s the only thing i don’t get tired of. the one thing i’m stuck with for life. the skin i’m in, the skin i must accept. embrace the freckles, the scars, the scrapes. the multiple layers telling the story of a soldier in the battles of her life. fragments of memories piled up, ready to burn — but she won’t let them....
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december 21, 2009
pins and needles down my throat with every word you spoke. maybe one more time could do the trick. that, or make me sick.
put me under your spell again, what is this blend of heaven and hell?
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december 26, 2009
hey lonely, i hate the way you creep up my shoulderblades and peep around the corner. kiss my cheek and make me weak enough to fall for your cues to speak to those who cause the pain i made such an effort to drain.
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breeze through the trees, the sun at ease. your ears plugged, by the buzz of the bees.
clouds overhead, blades of grass as your bed. sunset surrounds, the sun and moon were wed.
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untitled
substantial lies, cruel disguise. how i despise your internal spies. hear my cries, have we said our goodbyes? buried in the sighs, but you still find my eyes, trace your heart down my thighs, maintain the highs, surprise, surprise.
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don't build me up to tear me down.
hope sleeps in the back of my mind dormant, but breathing. hibernating.
when you come around, she begins to wake up. i try to tell her no, but she still waits for you.
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shoot me again, it won't hurt so bad this time.
i still think of you, speak of you, write of you, but i need to let go of you.
the pieces that linger like fragments of a bullet, like a droplet of rain, nothing left to gain. you’ve come and you’ve gone, and continue to do so.
but you can’t just walk in whenever you’re capable, it’s draining trying to keep you happy. i’ll never reach your standards, because...
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december 17, 2009
wrapped like ivy around your throat. legs get tangled, hearts afloat. and while your hips come full circle, you’re suffocating, lips turn purple. drowning in this sea of love, you make a plea that she’ll never speak of. thorns pricking at your knee, this love will never let you be.
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december 14, 2009
i was afraid of this. your poison finding my pores, you re-opening all of the sores that i dedicated my life to healing. the bruises that formed from this feeling, they wouldn’t fade, even when you strayed. it’s partly my fault, this emotional assault. the worst part is, you knew what you were doing. thief of happiness, thief of hope. you’re the dark angel while i’m trying...
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miss me yet?
you used to be the world, now you’re just good writing material. it’s not what you did that makes me upset anymore, no darling, it’s how i feel when i look at you. knowing that who i’m looking at is not the boy i once loved anymore. you died when i left, old, rotten love. i’m sorry for that. your dependency exceeded my expectations. and together we destroyed...
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i think best at night when the world is quiet and my thoughts can roam to you without anyone knowing
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unknown can't be unrequited
will you love me? take me away? out of california, out of the states? let’s run miles, chase all that awaits.
it’s you and me, baby. and maybe, just maybe we’ll make the stars shine, and you’ll be mine. the sky will smile, the wait: worthwhile.
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Hollow Fingers
this is a short story i wrote two years ago, but i’ve never posted it. i’ve decided to. enjoy! :) i’d love some feedback, if you do read it. in that case, there’s contact on the front page.
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Cassandra cupped the water in her hands, bringing it slowly to her face. She looked up into the mirror and watched what was left drip off her chin. Her black coffee-tinted...
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it gets lonely sometimes
butterfly kisses brush your cheek eskimo kisses make you weak
fireflies floating in the skies sugar sweet coating fogs your eyes
from the lies and the cries of your melted heart a messy work of art but you couldn’t depart
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HI EVERYONE.
i re-worked some things in my book, “laments of a treasure chest,” and have now uploaded it on blurb and made it public.
if you want to take a look at it and possibly buy it, there is a direct link right on my tumblr page!
so please check it out and if you have any questions, links for those are also on the tumblr page.
thanks for your support.
<3
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painful convalescence
i can’t breathe, the anxiety flows through my blood. the twitching and fidgeting concern my healthy mentality. is this you finally leaving me? the poison, the old habit i’ve been trying to kick? the addiction surfacing once again. strung out, holding out. i’m making it this time. dry veins, hung up heart. keep throwing your darts. it’s already burst from the hot and cold of...
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dear dad
i miss the days of legos and tinker toys polly pockets and being unaware of boys. but here’s the fact: i’m not a little girl anymore. i’ve opened doors, i’m ready to soar. i need you there, i need your support. the most important person in my whole universe, that’s the truth. i’m almost in tears, thinking about your worth. i’ll never let you down, at least...